This Moment

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THIS MOMENT

 

This time of joy or anguish

within this lifetime

is nothing more than

a moment

within a moment

within eternity.

 

A teardrop

that falls into a river

that flows into an ocean.

A flame

that becomes a firestorm

that quickly burns itself out.

 

I can choose to stand outside of this moment

and see it from a distant future

I feel it as a gift from time

only another ticking of the clock.

 

We dwell on the past

We plan and fear the future

When all we really have

is just this moment.

 

And all we need is now…

 

This moment

within a moment

within eternity.

 

© Michael Young 2019

Forever

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You walk into the room and sit at a table nearby

A businessman here for a business meeting

A face so handsome you draw my eye

Stylishly dressed and confident

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A smile that is bright, imperfect and yet perfect

Eyes so beautiful as I meet them, and you look away

A wedding ring on your finger, what a lucky girl!

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Somewhere around 40, I think

Light grey jacket, dark grey pants, light brown shoes

A bright white shirt with grey stripe tie

No hint of grey in your conservatively styled brown hair

Lightly tanned skin, beautiful brown eyes

A hint of hair on your forearm promises a masculine hairy chest

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We catch each other looking again and again

You try to concentrate on the business at hand

I can see you are a little distracted

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I can’t concentrate on what I’m here to do

So I write this ode to you

I watch your lips as you speak

I may never know your name

I may never see you again

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I will always remember your handsome face

I will recall your masculine voice

You might visit me in my dreams sometime

I might visit you in yours

We might never meet

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One of us will have to leave soon

Both of us have to move on

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No, I will never see you again

But this hour we have shared

In this crowded room

I will cherish our time together

Forever.

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© Michael Young 2019

Running Forward, Dancing Back

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Here’s a lyric that’s waiting for its melody ….

 

Running Forward, Dancing Back

 

You could be my dream come true

All I want is all of you

All this flirting never ends

Then you say we’re only friends

 

Is this real or fantasy

Are you playing games with me?

Are you feeding me a lie?

Waiting for my heart to die

 

 

It’s foolish to deny, don’t try to run away

It’s plain for all to see, the truth you never say

But we keep running down this track

Three steps forward, Two steps back

So look me in the eye and tell me what you see

Just say what’s on your mind and what you want from me

Then we keep dancing down this track

Two steps forward, One step back

 

 

Why do I keep coming back?

For another charm attack

I just only want to please

All you ever do is tease

 

Others see the games you play

Tell me I should walk away

I let you make all the rules

Smile at me and I’m your fool

 

 

I have to wonder why, you’re choosing to deny

This tension is so real, this fire that we feel

But we keep running down this track

Three steps forward, Two steps back

It’s driving me insane, this life of endless pain

I’ve nothing left to lose; it’s time for you to choose

Then we keep dancing down this track

Two steps forward, One step back

 

 

So many sleepless nights wishing you were here

Holding you close to feel you breathe, your naked body touching mine

So many dreams of what we’d do if you were here

I could taste you, kiss you, tease you, please you, wrap my love around you

 

 

See the goal but then it’s gone

Always stringing me along

I’ve laid my truth on the line

Why do you still waste my time?

 

Throw away the foolish rules

Made to chain the weaker fools

Here is where we’re meant to be

Take me now or set me free.

 

 

 

I have to wonder why, you’re choosing to deny

This tension is so real, this fire that we feel

But we keep running down this track

Three steps forward, Two steps back

 

So look me in the eye and tell me what you see

Just say what’s on your mind and what you want from me

Then we keep dancing down this track

Two steps forward, One step back

 

It’s foolish to deny, don’t try to run away

It’s plain for all to see, the truth you never say

But we keep running down this track

Three steps forward, Two steps back

 

It’s driving me insane, this life of endless pain

I’ve nothing left to lose; it’s time for you to choose

Then we keep dancing down this track

Two steps forward, One step back

 

 

Three steps forward, Two steps back

 

Two steps forward, One step back

 

Running forward,

 

Dancing back.

 

©Michael Young 2017

 

 

Running Blind

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Here’s another piece of verse I wrote called Running Blind which relates to my escape from the job I hated

 

I was running when I thought I was walking

Thought I was walking but it seems I was falling

I was dying when I thought I was living

Thought I was living but it seems I was lying

 

 

Trying to be heard through the chaos

Of voices never listening

Hearing vacant words of confusion

From the hearts never learning

Swept forward by time to somewhere

Not sure how to get there

The drone of routine and safety

That still leads to nowhere

 

 

I was breathing when I thought I was laughing

Thought I was laughing but it seems I was screaming

I was crying when I thought I was singing

Thought I was singing when it seems I was breaking

 

 

When I fell I came down so hard

Could see no way ahead

I just knew I could not go back

To the way that it had been

It’s so clear the cracks were showing

My pain had been denied

So now I know I could not see

The writing on the wall

 

 

I was stumbling when I thought I was dancing

Thought I was dancing but it seems I’m the fool

I was caged there when I thought I was moving

Thought I was moving now I see I had died

 

 

I was running when I thought I was walking

Thought I was walking but it seems that I fell

I was lying when I thought I was living

Thought I was living but I’m still running blind.

 

 

©MICHAEL YOUNG 2017

World Be Gone

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This was written a few days after the major drama I had at my former work which eventually led me to resign eight weeks later. When I saw this image I said: “That is EXACTLY how I feel” and I wrote this piece within half an hour! Stay tuned for more about that explosive time in my upcoming posts…

World Be Gone 1

 

Mirror, Mirror

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So many life times missing the same goal

So many life lines taking the same toll

When all the world is falling around you

Heart over head and your instinct drives you

To play the Martyr

 

How many times have you struggled through this

How many signs have you managed to miss

What is this pain you still choose to live through

Time and again this choice comes back for you

To play the Martyr

 

Change is so hard when you’re living a lie

It breaks your heart but you can’t hear its cry

It’s safer to stay in that which you know

You think you’re destined wherever you go

To play the Martyr

 

What is the reason you keep this so near

Is it just weakness or is it your fear

When will you learn, will you see what you’ve got

There’s nothing to lose if you decide not

To play the Martyr

 

Now we are back here, same lesson to learn

Now is my time and now it’s my turn

To walk away to be all I could be

To realise that no-one else needs me

To play the Martyr

 

The struggle feels so real here within me

The stress so high, anxiety shakes me

I must say “no” so I make this all end

Stand up, walk out and choose never again

To play the Martyr.

 

 

 

©MICHAEL YOUNG 2017